I have a shadow side that believes that if there is something I can creative with ease and joy, that if it feels like it already belongs to me, then I’m not creating the right thing.
That shadow believes that the thing that will bring me success, ease and joy is perpetually “out there” and not something I already have. And that it must feel hard.
And underneath that lies the shadow’s core belief: That who I am isn’t good enough and what I naturally create isn’t right.
I listened to the voice of that shadow for far too long.
And I tried to solve the “problem” of me by ignoring what I loved and wanted.
I destroyed countless good paintings.
I ignored my creative superpower and created with scarcity energy.
And I denied myself what gave me pleasure.
It was so self-annihilating.
But now I know:
That I create my best life, relationships and art with my creative superpower: Love.
When I love what I love.
When I follow the path of Love
that leads me home to myself.
Because where else would I go?
My life and my art are colorful as hell because I love it that way.
We are not creating the “wrong art” or the “wrong life” as long as we are creating from Love.
And yes, it gets to feel like ease and flow.
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