If your shame could speak to you, what would it say?
:gulp: Would rather clean the toilet right now than listen to it?
I know, right?
Because your shame knows the precise place to stick it's knife.
And it hurts.
But bear with me,
and let shame speak.
What does it say to you?
What words does it use?
What does it say about who you are?
Let it's voice get loud.
Then notice what you feel in your body hearing it.
What sensations do you notice?
What is it like to feel them?
What are you feeling?
Perhaps it's pain?
Name it. Feel it.
Let is grow bigger.
And, now, if your body could speak, what might it say?
Might it say "ouch"?
Say ouch. Out loud.
"OUCH!"
Say it again. Louder.
Give your pain a voice.
Because maybe you haven't until now.
Maybe you are so used to what shame says about you,
that you hardly notice it.
But you believe what it says,
because maybe you have given it a home inside of you,
like an abusive relationship with someone who tells you how "you're not whatever"
or "you're too whatever".
Maybe you have been trying not to notice your pain because it feels so bad,
but maybe you have noticed that you feel bad about yourself.
What might happen if you really noticed your pain?
What if you witnessed it your body?
And really felt how bad it feels?
What if you have decided you don't want to feel the pain of shame in your life?
Because you feel it instead of avoiding feeling it,
and then you came to your own defense and said to shame,
"You may not talk to me like that."
What if you held up your hand to shame to keep its abuse out of your head, your body, your heart?
And out of your life?
What if you severed your relationship with the one who criticizes you, demeans you, devalues you, dismissed you?
Your relationship with shame?
Because you decided that you deserve to be treated with love and care?
And then...then....
in the place that shame left vacant,
you found your loveliness?
And your rightness?
Your sensitivity and your hardness.
Your curiosity and your enthusiasm.
Your vulnerability and your toughness.
Your loudness and your quietness.
Your boldness and your timidity.
Your goodness and your naughtiness.
Your awkwardness and your grace.
Your talents and your challenges.
Your rightness and your fallibility.
Your softeness and your fierceness.
Your perfect imperfections.
Your feelabilty.
Your desires.
Your freak flag.
Your unique beauty.
Your LOVABILITY.
What if you found YOU?
Your HUMAN.
Your DIVINE human.
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