I felt bruised by a tough week:
Pain from a misunderstanding with a dearly beloved.
Frustrated with technology hurdles that slowed my business creations.
Anxiety had my self-confidence and creativity taking a hit.
And my worry was turning the colors of my life to gray.
My Ego had it’s hair on fire and was rushing in to FIX it all- running in all directions towards all the problems at once, throwing spaghetti at all the walls, desperate for something to stick, dousing all smoldering problems and discomfort with its big firehose.
Doing its job to keep me safe from the pain of failure and rejection the only way it knows how- by warning me to be vigilant and protect myself.
But I know that my Ego is not the right tool for this job.
So, I settled into my Grateful and Abundant Everyday practice and began to meditate.
My Ego was not having it. It got louder, continuing to use my mind to tell me all kinds of scary scarcity stories, and my feeling body was anxious from believing it.
I repeated my 20 minute meditation twice to quiet it down, turning my attention away from my mind and towards my body.
This is where what I call P*ssytwinkle® comes in.
The sacral chakra- the pelvic bowl, womb space, yoni- is associated with pleasure and overall enjoyment of life. When I lovingly focus on this location of energy in my body, my relationship with myself and the world feel harmonious, pleasureful, nurturing and trusting.
I create my best days, my best relationships and my best creations when I source this energy.
I meditated, and with each breath I drew, I imagined drawing energy from the earth up into my sacral chakra, feeling it fill up with warmth and light, then rise and flood my heart chakra with love, then my throat chakra with power, then exhaling pleasure, love and trust into space around me.
My body told my mind that I already have what I need, that what I want is available in abundance, and everything is alright. My worried mind quieted as the anxiety in my body was replaced, breath by breath, with pleasure, harmony, trust and love.
What my body experienced in the present moment became what my mind experienced- and what I experienced.
My body healed the dis-ease of my mind by re-creating my present reality.
I CREATED MY REALITY.
A reality of peace, love, pleasure, inspiration, love and trust in life. And then, to alchemize and solidify it, I completed the journal writing portion of the Grateful and Abundant Everyday practice.
I am feeling like myself- my REAL self- again. And that feels amazing.
It is the present moments, one after another, that we create our lives.
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