Unblocking the creative power of desire.

Why we might “close our legs’ to receiving the abundance that life is aching to give us.

I threw myself into financial uncertainty and walked away from the safety of my well-established, 30-year career as a fashion photography art director.

The golden cage of a comfortable salary rattled as my soul cried out to create a life that felt fuller, richer, and truly mine.

I told myself: “I’ve wandered through Europe seven times, owned a beautiful home, and had a closet full of fashionable clothes. It’s okay; I don’t need all of that anymore. I don’t need much money at all. I’ll live with less. It’s fine.”

But did I really desire more of the pleasures, freedom, and choices money could bring?

Of course I did. But I didn’t dare claim it. And what did money hear from me? “I don’t need you. You can go now.”

Imagine saying the same to a lover: “No, it’s okay. I don’t need what you have to give. I don’t need to dance with you. I’ll be fine on my own.”

How would that feel to him? A man seeking partnership and connection would turn away, looking for a woman whose joy in receiving him he could feel.

Have you ever noticed that tight, cold grip around your heart when you touch a true desire?

I have. Desires are edgy; they confront us in the tender spot of our self-limiting beliefs about our worthiness and what is possible for us.

They invite us to grow into the woman we have not yet become, to step into a life we don’t yet know how to live.

Fear and doubt can sneak into our hearts on the coattails of desire, tempting us to relieve our discomfort by abandoning our dreams of the life we would love to live.

Sweet Sisters of Scarcity, this is how we “close our legs” to receiving the abundance that life is aching to give us. When we close our hearts, wombs, and bodies to the truth of our sacred desires, we unconsciously agree to manifest the reality of scarcity. We block ourselves from receiving all that would love to help us create the life we deeply long for, choosing instead the comfort of the familiar, however unfulfilling it may be.

We live in a world that glorifies how masculine energy creates—pushing through discomfort, achieving goals, and then resting in emptiness.

But the feminine? She seeks more—to fill the void, to endlessly create. She does this through desire, but we’ve been taught that our desires are inconvenient, disruptive, and too much. We’ve learned to disconnect from them to avoid being judged.

Desire is not indulgence; it is the sacred spark of life. And it is disruptive. It challenges what we think is permanent, shakes the status quo, and whispers, “What more is possible?”

The co-creational energies of the world, the people in it, and the cosmos need our desires to create—they are the very ingredients of creation. When we ignore our desires, we abandon our birthright as sacred creators and agents of evolution. We become invisible to the very energies that long to co-create with us.

My relationship with money mirrored how I closed myself off from receiving in other areas of my life. I chose partners who couldn’t meet my needs. I turned away from career opportunities because I was afraid to hold the challenges, growth and rewards they would bring.

So I made a choice. I committed to healing my relationship with my desires—feeling what I feel, loving what I love, and wanting what I want. I began to expand my capacity to hold what my desires brought, even when it felt uncomfortable.

I explored the scarcity beliefs passed down through my family’s feminine lineage. I claimed my worthiness to be loved, cared for, and provided for. I slowed down to notice and receive the abundance and beauty around me, and to receive my own self-care and love.

And then, magic started to happen.

What I wanted began to show up in the most unexpected ways—sometimes as subtle guidance, other times as miraculous, made-to-order physical manifestations.

I am not "woo-woo." I have no idea how this works. But it does for me, over and over again, in the most astounding ways, when I allow myself to brush my fear and scarcity aside and delight in the feeling of what it would be like to live the life I desire.

Healing your relationship with your desires is healing your relationship with yourself. This is my invitation for you to reclaim the creational power of your desire:

- Allow yourself to feel all that you feel—including desires—deeply, without judgment or shame.

- Cultivate compassion for the wounds of your past that denied you the right to have desires.

- Heal your belief in your worthiness of love, pleasure, abundance, and all that nourishes your soul.

- Trust that life wants to pour abundance into you, and open your body, heart, and soul to it.

- Hold yourself with love through the edginess of stretching your capacity to receive beyond the edges of what you’ve known, so you can enter into the life you love.

This is the luminous, creative spark of your feminine essence, open and ready to receive all the love, abundance, and co-creation that life is waiting to give you.