...until I asked it do for me what I wasn’t doing for myself: to love me. I spent too many painful years chasing my tail and trying to be what I thought others wanted me to be in my relationships and with my art. And I was miserable in my art studio. Every moment I spent creating, I was asking myself, Who in the world is going to like this? Why would anyone like this? What should I be creating? I was anxious in my relationships, asking the same the same questions: Who in the world would like me? Why would anyone like me? Who should I be? I was out-sourcing validation,approval, love. But all of that is an inside job. The person who created the contract that I needed to please others was me. So I tore up the contract. And now, when I am in my studio, I ask myself, What do I love? What do I want to experience? What do I want to create from that? I serve love, instead of demanding that love save me. I ask myself the same questions in my relationships. What do I love? What do I want to experience? What do I want to create from that? And I serve love, instead of demanding that love save me. My relationship with my art has transformed because I paint from love.
My relationships have transformed because I created them from the love that I already have and not need or lack. I am the artist of my life. And so are you.
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